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Where'd I come up with the name "Favorite Nitemare" you ask? From a surface standpoint, it is a term used in Mos Def's "The BoogieMan Song" hook: I am the most beautiful boogieman The most beautiful boogieman Let me be your favorite nitemare Close your eyes and I'll be right there But it goes deeper than that. Much like my Top 10 movies and the TK12, I have a series of nitemares that haunt me on a regular basis; that is, when I'm able to go to sleep. Currently, there are five (5) and I think I will illustrate each one periodically as a bridge into my upcoming new blogsite, FaveNiteDotCom... Favorite Nitemare's Favorite Nitemare #1: The Room Four walls. No door. No window. I don't even know how I got in there, but there's no way out. On the walls, pictures of Simone. On the ceiling, all the awards and plaques I've acquired over the years. On the floor, broken glass. In the corner, a mahogany casket. I have a serious fear of dead people, but curiosity overwhelmed the phobia. I open the casket to find my body laying there in a black suit, white shirt and piano tie. I don't look old; there's just a speckle of gray hair at the temples. My lifeless face holds a frown. There's a picture of my son and daughter in my left hand. The same hand has no wedding ring on it. In my right hand is a small bottle of cucumber-melon lotion. In my front pocket is an old TDK 60-minute cassette tape and, on the label in my handwriting, is the phrase "My Bride" - a song I wrote for Simone's first wedding as she walked down the ailse. By the youthful, unhappy look on my dead face, I see that I didn't last much longer and I died in depression. The lights go out. I hear the corpse speak...it's my voice whispering: "This is your destiny. Stop trying to fight it. She doesn't want you. Nobody wants you. All those talents. Gifts. They were just devices of torture, because no matter what you do- you will always be alone." I've had this dream @ least 8 times in the last year. The phrase is EXACTLY the same. The nitemare is exactly the same. So I get up and I stay up. Scared to go back to sleep. Wishing I could go back just to rest for work. After the third time, I began to welcome FN#1, because having a nitemare implies that you are asleep.